||[Apr. 3rd, 2008|02:07 pm]
I'm in a weird state of mind at the moment, so remembered good ol' live journal and decided to have a little rant...kinda.|
Its weird at the moment, i know i need to focus on my dissertation, but all i can think about is how uch i dont want to leave keele :(
everything at the moment seems nice and fits into place. I feel quite happy with the rob situation. Thought i'd be more upset than i am, but i feel like i definately made the right descison, which for me is impressive beacuse i am queen of errors...lol
Had a reeeeaally fun night last night as well and if anything it put my mind to rest that i am going to die alone and never find anyone i like ever again! don't want a relationship at the moment, but is fun to talk to different people and have a little flirt i think. The real shocker last night was that i found Dave easier to talk to than Rob, even at the end of our relationship when i'd been with him over a year, so kinda confirmed to me that next time i need to find someone on the same level as me, and i should definately pay more attention to 'sparks' and shit, thinking back to it now, there was never a time me and rob 'clicked'. I did enjoy his company, but i i'd forgot how nice it was to just be myself around someone and atually have them get the jokes i make rather than a nervous laugh and blank look! lol!I dont think i laughed at all on mine and robs first date so it says something. was pleasantly surprised is the only way to put it as i was slightly dreading the date :s jus goes to show, give everything at least one chance, coz you never know, you might have fun!
Just in this state of meh at the moment and i hate it!! i really want to get my room scrubbed and polished all nice today, but i feel totally exhausted, like getting up and picking things up jus makes me feel like i need a good lie down:( mildly worrying! ah well...
hopefully i will get SOME sort of tidying on the go shortly...i hope! thinking a lil nap time might be a good idea, but i really want to be able to sleep tonight... :(
should probably eat at somepoint as well! lol